Damek.

On the other hand, maybe… no classes. No skiing this winter. (Well, maybe one quick trip.)

Paying off debt. Saving up. Learning some restaurant business stuff.

Starting a pastry garden. Pastries & coffee all day. Beer in the evenings, maybe as early as after noon? Wine? Maybe some simple sandwiches & soup. Some additional dishes in the evening, like chiliquilla? Or keep the kitchen simple and just do pastries, coffee & beer? Free WiMax. Haha. Call it “Derbyshire” in random honor of Delia, plus it sounds like a nice place to visit. Or just call it “Alex’s Bakery.”

We’ll see. Someday I want to run a pub. With good food. Maybe call it “The Doctor’s Trainers.” My bartenders will know what a Scotsman on a Horse is. Hmm, I think I also need to come up with a drink called The Kamikaze Scotsman…

Time to get off my butt. I’m 30 for goodness’ sake. Well, this year, some more science classes at BMCC.

Beyond that, I think CUNY’s TOP is what I’ve been looking for. I will also apply for the NYCTF again. I will also give Teach For America a shot, and just generally apply to a couple grad school programs.

But… I’m not sure I want to spend much more time in school if I’m not actually teaching. It’s rather daunting, the idea of getting a Masters in Education only to find out I don’t really like teaching. I have a feeling that, if I don’t get into one of these programs and it comes down to a choice of going to grad school, I will probably choose something else.

A trade. A skill. Perhaps the culinary business program. Learn to run a restaurant. Then move off somewhere and start one. A cafe/bar/lounge perhaps? I’ve kinda always wanted to anyway. Better yet! A family pub where we brew some specialty beers! Um, yeah…

We shall see. Follow the teaching thread, first… It’s my ticket to moving out of this country one day. I should remember that motivation.

This benzene ring family is awesome. In fact the whole thing is awesome. I’ll take a subchapter 7 relationship, please! With a side of flexibility!

If I cheered “beyond marriage,” would I get in trouble with my gay friends who are about to get married in October? Hmm. Probably.

What would it be like to not feel anything anymore? How horrible, when just crying can be like an orgasm sometimes.

Some interesting discussion here about monogamous cheating and friends … I find it interesting because I’ve had the good fortune to meet a few good friends in the past year or so, and were I not allowed to form any sort of meaningful connection with them for fear of it being “cheating” on Alex, well … why would I limit myself so?

But it’s true, some people have the idea that your deepest thoughts or feelings, your strongest emotional connection, should be reserved for just one person, but, it’s like, I don’t care who you are you’re going to have relationships with other people that have unique dynamics and their own in-jokes and things like that. I think some people are afraid of losing a sort of perceived ownership or control over the emotional lives of their partners, and while I understand it I think it’s also not very loving, to keep someone you care about from growing in other directions and dimensions.

It true, if your best friend or partner has other best friends or partners, there are going to be things you’re going to start “not knowing about,” and less time for you. But look at it this way - the other friends are also not going to know things about your relationship with this person, you have your own special in-jokes and history, and the other person doesn’t get as much time either.

It’s like cloning. I could be cloned, memories and all, and there’d be two Adams. Except there wouldn’t. From the moment of cloning, there’d be Adam 1 and Adam 2, and we’d start having unique experiences that would define us as separate individuals. It’d be sort of like giving birth except deciding which one of us has to pay the rent would be a bit difficult.

And if that paragraph doesn’t make sense to you, then you’re clearly not a clone of me.